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Today I pushed myself out of my comfort zone and survived. I had a moment when I honestly thought I might have a massive panic attack in front of 30 odd 9-10yr olds. But I didn't.
Mr 9 is learning about Cyber safety at the moment. And me being such a blabber mouth told his teacher that I worked online and one thing led to another and I found myself volunteering to talk to the kids about what I do, and how to keep safe online using Social Media and forums.
"What have I done?!?!?" was my next thought.
A note come home with Lo on Wednesday afternoon asking if I could go in on Thursday at 9am for a talk with the kids. BOTH classes of grade 3/4. Not just Lo's class. ARRGGHH!!
I researched, jotted down notes and tried to prepare myself as best I could. I am not good at speaking to people. I kept telling myself they were ONLY kids.
That worked fine, along with some deep breathing this morning UNTIL I got to School. I had to detour into the girls toilets to calm down and sip cold water. I was sure I was going to have a full blown panic attack and was ready to tell them I couldn't do it.
I knew I would be SO angry with myself though and Mr 9 would have been really disappointed. He seemed to be quite excited about mum "teaching" his class.
I sipped more cold water and headed to his classroom.
His teacher met me and said "how you feeling? Nervous?" EXHALE!
"Yes, actually I am. I think I will leave you to do most of the talking and I will just follow the prompts." Start to relax a bit.
I sat throughout the morning meeting, trying to stay calm, and waited for the second group of grade 3/4's to arrive.
I started off a bit uneasy. But relaxed into the questions and quite enjoyed sharing info with them. It was good.
I survived. And I feel quite proud that I pushed through that fear, and did something I normally wouldn't even consider.
I think this could be a good start for me.
Have you pushed beyond your comfort zone recently?