Idea pinched from Fox In Flats
Thankfully we survived. It wasn't the day I planned at all - (I woke up rather ill)
But I forced myself to at least make the trip to the cemetery to pay our respects to mum and I am glad we did.
I feel a bit more at peace now. I feel like I have a way to release the unhappiness thanks to an idea from Fox In Flats in releasing a balloon, and we also blew some bubbles for nan.
We spent the day on Saturday making a little patch in the garden for nan and I know I have somewhere now to keep adding to on special occasions and just because.
I forget at times what a big hole has been left in the boys lives. I was reminded today when I asked Mr 9 who he wrote about for his hero in today's NAPLAN test. His reply .... Nanny.
He misses her dearly but holds it all so close. I need to stop wallowing. Hopefully our little garden will give us that special release we all need.
Coming up to the 12mth anniversary of mums death next month, until then I know I will still be battling the demons. But I feel once we reach that first year things will become easier. I hope!